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What's up, everybody!
I'm gonna be taking a break for a day or two from uploading video game content. Nothing is wrong or anything; I've just recently discovered the joys of taking naps for no reason at all, and I want to just chill for a couple days.
I've been at this every day for the last 2 months. lol While I'm having the best time doing this, and I'm so happy I'm actually gaining subscribers here and there, it's starting to take its toll.
So, for the next few days, I'll just do the podcast and random videos, but on Monday I'll return with my playthrough of Kingdom Hearts! I'm calling it on the Let's Play of Silent Hill 2. It's not gaining any traction, and I'm not experiencing the game the way it's meant to be played by doing it in this format.
I can't WAIT to start KH though. I absolutely love that game. It's the only game I've done a 24 hour play session of in a single sitting. I wish I could do it again, but I can only record one hour of footage at a time.
I really hope people check this playthrough out. I would love to have played through the entire series on here one day.
I plan on doing this regularly for the foreseeable future. I've got 3 years to try and make something of myself, and this is the beginning of that attempt. Right now, I'm just getting my personality out there in as many ways as I can.
I'm planning on writing some material and performing at one of the open mic nights in Meta Horizons, or Meta Worlds, or whatever app has a club you can go to and perform.
If someone gives me some topics, I could write some stand-up or something. I just need a muse.
My humor is very contextual and conversational. I don't do "jokes", but I'm good at improv and riffing. I'd like to have a bit of material that I can use as a springboard for random asides and stories and interactions with the crowd.
Long story short, this channel is my chance to advertise myself and prove to the world that I'm not fucking worthless. I've done every job you can imagine, from cooking to caregiving to car building to DisneyWorld!
Now, after a long road of failures due to mental illness and just plain stupidity, I'm on disability and using this time to try and build something. I don't want to be invalid. I don't want to be content receiving a check every month.
I can't deal with people in a normal way. I'm great through a screen, a camera, text, a mic, whatever; and I'm GREAT with strangers. Get to know me though, and it's only a matter of time before the cracks start appearing. And when they realize there's something wrong with you, you start to get treated differently, and you wonder why everyone is turning on you when you're just trying to be a good person and make friends and just get through the fucking day without killing someone. I've had enough nervous breakdowns as a result of simply interacting with people on a daily basis, I finally just broke.
I'm trying to put myself back together, and this is the only way I can do it without breaking down again in the future. I can interact on MY terms. When the choice is mine, I can be pretty great.
I'm not hideously ugly, I've got a radio voice, and I'm relatively funny when I want to be. My wife says I'm like a 7 or 8; even though she's a 10, I'm a 2, and she's shit at math. But, for real, she makes me feel like I'm a fucking 20. Just being loved by her after all the shit I've done in my life is a miracle. She makes me exist. Without her, I'd just drop fucking dead. I talked about it in the Aubrey Plaza/Walton Goggins episode of In Discussion. Check that one out while I'm taking my break from video games.
I can't really think of anything else to say at the moment. I just woke up and this all poured out of me pretty seamlessly. Probably doesn't make much sense, but I never read back what I write.
Never regret anything, unless you're just an outright asshole. But a typo here and there, or a thought you might take back later, an opinion that might change; never judge your past self. Just accept that you're in the present and move on. YOU are in control of your own world. If you want to be happy, be happy! It's all meaningless anyway! You can become a millionaire and live in a fucking mansion made of helicopters. Doesn't change the fact that you are going to die. It's coming for everyone, except for me because I'm delusional and dying's a mug's game.
Either way, no matter what, it ends. So don't waste time waiting for something to happen to be happy. Be happy with what you have, go after what you want whether you're going to fucking fail or not, and just be nice to everyone.
I fucking HATE people and I'm nice to EVERYONE!!! And I'm the happiest fucking person in the world right now. Well, the happiest person in the world with depression, bipolar disorder, PTSD, autism, ADHD, and most likely prostate cancer judging my how long it takes me to take a piss these days, and how often it feels like I've gotta go. I haven't slept an entire night in years, but this pissing thing started in the last six months and now I'm running back and forth to the bathroom like I've got the bladder of a tiny child or likely Larry David.
Getting older sucks. Everything hurts all the time, even when you're laying down; there's always new red bumps or dots or moles popping up that don't really DO anything, but each one adds a new voice to my head that tells me I'm dying. I don't sleep anymore. I just pass out from exhaustion at random intervals. I feel like sleep is giving yourself over to death because I don't dream these days, so I close my eyes and a second later it's light outside. I never realize I'm asleep anymore and it's pretty fucking weird. It's made the last year feel like one long day.
I'm rambling. Just wanted to empty some of these thoughts and give some updates on myself as an actual person.
I think, the more people get to know me, the more successful this channel is going to be. Unless everyone hates me as much as I do.
Guess we'll find out. Thanks for checking out the channel. Hope you enjoyed the update.
George and I will be back sometime tonight with segment 2 of Kinds of Kindness, and I'll be back with a few more installments of Metacity Patrol in a day or two.
If you read all of this, know that you're fucking awesome.
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Hey, everyone! Quick channel update!
George and I are going to be reviewing the Deadpool franchise at some point in the future, so I'm really hyped for that. The podcast is a lot of fun and I want it to be a major part of this channel.
In other news, I've been invited to be a beta tester for Metacity Patrol, a game I recently discovered on the Quest 3. I'm having the best fucking time exploring this game and discovering its new features every day. They even implemented changes based on requests in MY videos! I couldn't believe it! I feel like I just helped create something amazing and it's a really great feeling I don't get too often. I really do want to make something out of this channel, and this feels like a small step towards validation.
I don't know.
I've got some more figures coming in the mail in the coming days and weeks, so look forward to me desecrating some mint in box vintage figures so I can display them on my mediocre channel! I've already opened up some pretty classic figures that I've wanted since like HIGH SCHOOL, so I don't care if it offends. I'mma display the hell out of these 25 year old toys.
Let's see...I'll be doing some more Silent Hill 2 in the next few days. I just worked my way through Brookhaven Hospital in the last installment, but I've uploaded around 6 hours of SH2 so far and I'm about midway through the game.
After Silent Hill 2, I'm gonna cleanse my filthy, filthy soul with some Kingdom Hearts. One of my favorite games of all time. I'll be uploading it in segments as close to an hour as I can possibly get without going over, so expect a lot of running to save points and such just to be safe. But it'll be a good playthrough. I absolutely adore this game, ever since the year it came out and my parents bought me a PS2 alongside Kingdom Hearts and GTA III so I wouldn't go to Disney World with them. Is that weird? Who am I to say. I'm not a parent.
I guess I'm done with this post, though. Nobody is reading it anyway. So, really, I can say whatever I want about Adrian Brody and his big, dumb Oscar speech. Entitled prick. My wife and I turned his speech off after like 2 minutes, watched some Rock of Love on Tubi, went back a few minutes later and he was STILL fucking talking!
And Bret Michaels banged like 3 different girls in that time!
Thanks to his speech, among other moments of good ol' Hollywood self ass-licking (Looking at you, you weird gospel singers or whatever the hell won best music!), I missed out on Best Actress and Best Film, both of which I was rooting for The Substance because that film goes fucking HARD in the final act. Not since Dead/Alive have I seen a schlockier gorefest, and I absolutely ADORE that Demi Moore won a Golden Globe for a B movie disguised as elevated horror (I hate the phrase "elevated horror", but don't know what else to call A24 films and their ilk. Is "ilk" the right word? Sounds negative as shit.). Loved The Substance. Check it out if you haven't, then check out George and I talking about it. It's an earlier episode and I hadn't really found my stride yet, plus I've got busted ass teeth in every video prior to Channel Update 2, so don't judge it too harshly if you check it out. I'm trying.
Alright, think that's gonna do it for this update. I've got a story to tell about the Deadpool costume, but I'll save it for my proper review of it. It's a goddamn death trap.
Comment if you read this! I just wanna share shit I love with people and hopefully hear back!
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Hey, everyone!
Thank you so much to everyone who is subscribing. I can't believe how steadily that number has been rising, but based on the correlation between subs and the number of likes on the Iron Man VR review, I know that's where everybody is coming from.
PLEASE explore the more recent videos. I'm really proud of the podcast and the gameplay videos starting with like Silent Hill 2.
I'm just now finding my voice, but there's no feedback to know how I'm doing and it's really disheartening.
I went on a rant about the dislike button on an episode of In Discussion. It was pretty vulgar, if that entices you.
As it should...
Anyway check out my recent stuff! The quality of commentary will slowly improve. After Silent Hill 2, I'm doing a playthrough of Kingdom Hearts, my favorite game of all time.
Again, thank you for subbing! Please leave feedback if you're sticking around! I'll do my best to respond.
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Sorry for the scatter shot approach to my gaming videos the last few days.
I'm trying to find something worth doing a playthrough of on PS5, and I'm FINALLY playing the DLC for Star Wars: Tales from the Galaxy's Edge, so I'll be reviewing the remainder of that in the future on Quest 3.
The podcast will be recording another episode, possibly tonight, where George and I will be challenging each other to homemade Simpsons trivia questions in order to pick another bad movie.
Thank you to everyone that's bearing with me and along for the ride.
I'll find more focus once the excitement of my new PS5 wears off. Lol
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What's up, everybody?
I just got a PS5 and a headset, so I'll be uploading some non VR content in the future as well.
Just trying to decide on a game I would like to do a playthrough of, but not on my own time. If anyone has a recommendation, let me know!
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So, George and I recorded our Furry Vengeance episode yesterday.
Unfortunately, I went pretty off the rails because of Adrian Brody reasons and the whole episode just becomes one long rant about entitled celebrities.
One day, I'll release it as a bonus what if episode.
We're recording the discussion again really soon!
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What's up, everybody?
I'm going to be taking a step back in the future when it comes to the channel. The views aren't really anything special, and I've been burning myself out making multiple videos every day for the last month or so.
I'm going to scale back and do more focused gaming videos and focus more on the podcast as well.
Thank you to everyone who has been watching.
Shout out to @astrogoblinplays!
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It said to share a behind the scenes photo. I'm just a guy with a VR headset, so here's a cat.
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@astrogoblinplays, if you ever see this, I would love your thoughts on my channel. I've done over 100 videos in the last month, including over 7 hours of a podcast. You're my inspiration and I just want to know that what I'm doing is worth a shit.
I really hope you can check it out. Thanks for your time, if you ever read this.
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Thank you to everybody who has been watching my videos. My depression has gotten so bad that my teeth are actually rotting, and I'm trying to get back out in the world by sharing things I love.
The fact that I'm getting any clicks at all with no promotion is awesome, and a couple of you are actually sticking around!
I know my SUPERHOT videos have been averaging around 80 views, so I'll try to do more of that game in the future, or more games like it where I get to feel like a virtual Deadpool.
I'm doing another show called In Discussion, the channel's namesake. I just talk about whatever with my friend George. Literally just a discussion.
But we have guests and we review movies, so it's pretty fun.
We're talking about A Different Man this afternoon. I fucking hated it; he loves it.
Gonna be a fun talk. Hope some of you check it out.
Anyway, I'mma get back to watching The White Lotus. Sydney Sweeney is scamming on her diverse friend's man! What a bitch!
Can I still say bitch?
I'm gonna anyway.
Sorry if I lost anyone with that last bit.
Also, sorry for the length of this update. I like to do stream of consciousness writing and just type whatever comes to mind as fast as I possibly can.
I'm gonna stop for now though. The guy who runs the hotel was just eating Man Bun's ass, and Mama's Boy just walked in!
I suck with remembering character names, so everyone just gets a nickname generally.
Anyway, love you all and I hope you'll continue to check out my channel! Shout me out to Astro Goblin or James and Elyse Willems.
They're all my inspirations for even doing this.
I just really miss Funhaus and old G4 and when gaming was fucking awesome.
Trying to bring it back but I'm nervous.
I'm gonna need some support. I don't want to profit off of this. I just want the illusion of friends. Lol
Anyway, spread the word if you can, please!
Thank you!
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The coolest channel you've never heard of.
I used to aim to upload at least one video every day.
Hope you enjoy!